Mad TV Terminator 3



HAHA. this is a STUPID VIDEO.

NAT IS CRAZY.

Nat didn't sleep the whole of today. Spent my whole time doing what you might ask?
Doing math.

=D

Off to shower. Shall attend mass at St. Igs.

SUDDENLY. EVERYTHING'S FINE.


Nat can't sleep again.
I've been studying since 12 night.
Came online for a little break.


Went for Carpenter Tools' International Concert.

I WON A NIKE BAG! SO COOL.
Pictures and videos cant upload. Shall try again in the afternoon.

MY ULCER FREAKING HURTS.
And I've a MIXTURE OF COLOURS on my chin.
BLUE and BLACK and a little of GREEN too.


Oh yes. I went to Jeremy Wong's house.
His birthday party.
Haha, I finally got to know him. Bleah. After seeing him for quite some time in curia.

EUGENE'S PHONE IS EXACTLY LIKE MINE. COPY-ER.


THANK YOU.
Thanks for that wonderful chat we had just now.
Looks like I did the right thing.
When ONE door closes, THE OTHER OPENS.
I've locked the door, and thrown away the key.
As for the other door? I've opened it, and thrown away the key.
So that it'll never be locked.. Ever..


mwahah.

The painful truth. LOVE HURTS.

The difference between infatuation and love.
Oh my. Am I in the right state of mind to decide what I'm really going through right now?

Remember I said you'll meet four people in your life?
1. YOURSELF.
2. The one you love most. (but he may not love you the most)
3. The one who loves you most. (but you may not love him the most)
4. The one who you dont love most, and who doesn't love you most. But you end up marrying him anyway.

A few days ago. I said I've met ONE.
I guess I've met three now. ):

And I have no idea what to do. It's all so BLEAH.
I need VERBAL DIARRHOEA NOW.

I'm so sorry to all my readers out there.
I'm just going through a dilemma right now.
A HUGE CONFUSING ONE.


God. All I need is YOU RIGHT NOW.
CTI CONCERT IN A FEW HOURS TIME.

My Destiny (Finale w/Studio Version)


OH WOW.
I wna sing like her.


And someday. I wish you'd give up.


oh crap.
the renovation works are irritating me.

dance a few hrs away.
I can smell it.


And I was reading through my brother's SJI MUSE book.
WOW. The stuff the guys wrote. Haha. Seriously nice.

I saw marcus' writing. And this guy called francis chee. Wow. Seriously good.
I submitted an essay for the commonwealth essay 2005. But I don't think I received anything.
BLEAH.

TODAY'S SUCH A BAD DAY.

1. i lost my voice completely
2. my water supply was cut off for seven hours
3. singapore cant vote
4. bio's not going in my head because of lymphs
5. I just told the one i ever loved the wrong thing. ):



WHY. DAMNIT NAT.
No more emo-ness.

RIGHT AFTER I SAID NO.
I felt it.
OMG. Chloe. I feel bitchy.

Truth is. I STILL LOVE YOU.

why. ):

The chance came this afternoon. She didn't take it.

You finally told me what I wanted to hear. But looks like I've changed me feelings towards you.

I liked you. But you played way too hard. I didn't think I would have wanted to wait so long for you.

I't's over. I blew the chance.

Good JOB NAT. bleah.

Well well well. Miss Nat didn't go to school today.

Heard that it was a slack day today. Emath, amath, and chinese homework.
The good thing about not going to school on thursdays is that it is a triple ____ period, and there are no SCIENCES to miss.
=D


Sorethroat's getting worse.
I cant speak. Not as loud as yesterday.
I can speak under my breath, makes it sound like i'm whispering.
Even then, I'm not using my voice, I'm using my breath to speak.

I want my voice!

3 things I can't do without my voice:
1. Sing.
2. Communicate.
3. WHINE.

1 good thing about losing my voice:
1. NOT SPEAK TO ___ (ahhem).



So, Nat slept for 14 hours. Which is bad. I planned to study bio, and physics in the morning.
I woke up at 2pm. Just to find THAT MY WATER SUPPLY IS CUT OFF AGAIN!

What luck Nat.

Headed down to the polyclinic to get my BELOVED MC.

I took more than 30 mins just to register. GOSH. How slow can these places get.

However, the doctor I counsulted was _ _ _. LUCKY ME.

MC: One day from school and Two weeks from choir. I wont be able to speak till sunday.

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO FOR THE CONCERT THEN?

I'll be some dumb person.

I've learnt to treasure my voice.

I LOVE YOU.

Heartprints. Mr Low talked about it.
These are footprints that are left in the heart.

I wonder if I have left any in anyone.
To me. It's caused by the care, concern and love one can give SO SELFLESSLY.


Thank You Dear Lord.
You saved me.

I'M DOOMED FOR ETERNITY.
ALL BECAUSE... I didn't go for Assumption mass. And I went for dance instead.

SORE THROAT TODAY.
Could barely talk. But strepsils definitely relieve half of the pain.

SMARTY PANTS OVER HERE went for choir.. And didn't sing.
Oh well, I'm going tmr again. But I highly doubt I'll be able to sing.


Anw. Talking about singing. Singapore Idol's on later.
JONATHAN MUST DO WELL! I will not let others take over him. TSK.
Even if he does not as well.. I will only allow one other person to do better. MATHILDA. Oh my goodness. If only I sang as well as her.



We were returned our physics paper. I would love to thank God for helping me.
Just yesterday the thought hit me:
"Whatever we do, we should be doing it to Glorify God's name."

And yeah. I'm overly happy today.
Did very well for PHYSICS!

I JUST HAD MY DREAM SUPPER: SUBWAY!!
Totally rocker.

Anw. Danced was ALOT more fun than Vocals today.
Had to sing American Pie.
"Bye bye miss. american pie
Drove my chevy to the levy
But the levy was dry
And good old boys were drinking whiskey and rye singing
This will be the day that i die
This will be the day that i die"

Haha. MET MR CUTE TODAY.


Oh yes, that's how i look when i'm like totally CONFUSED.


Shucks. I'm stressed with MATH HOMEWORK.


P.S. These shots were totally candid.

Vocals from 7-8.30
Dance from 8.30-10

TIRING NIGHT.




Isn't it strange how everything seems to be there every single day. And you don't take notice of it? You wake up, you walk to the same bathroom, you do exactly the same thing, you put on exactly the same clothes. And you leave the house at around the same time everyday, trying to catch the same bus.
You see the people you see everyday. At the same bus stop. Sitting beside that guy who loves to smoke and don't seem to care that he's contracted lung cancer. You breathe in the smoke of the cigarette, and you worry that you will contract lung cancer yourself one day.
And you see that guy who you've noticed for so long.. But you can't seem to grab his attention.. What more can you do?

You know. You never told me once you loved me. And there's nothing I can say to that. I can't force love.
You meet four people in your lifetime:
1. Yourself.
2. The one you love most.
3. The one who loves you most.
4. The one who you dont love most and the person who doesn't love you most, but you end up marrying him/her anyway.

And by far. I've probably found only ONE. MYSELF. Even then. I'm not sure.

I need to make full use of every second I have. But when I say that. I think: Is sleep a waste of time. Is going to school, and going through that monotonous cycle everyday a waste of time?

You see the same things and people every single day that you take them for granted. You don't bother about them. You think they're redundant. You walk past them as if they do not affect you.
TRUTH IS. Everything and everyone affects one another. ACCEPT THIS TRUTH.


Do everything you can with the greatest love you can. Do everything you can with the interest of others in mind. Do everything you can while you can.
I didn't know I lived by that. BUT SOMEHOW I DO.

And this society somehow discriminates the selflessness of people.
They've taught me to be selfish.
They've taught me how to be greedy, power hungry.
They've taught me to not live by the truth.
YOU DIE, YOU DIE ALONE. That's what today's society lives by.
A world of hate, and misery.



Haiz. What an emo post.
I'm all right.
Just did some thinking on the journey home from school. And here I am.

Ok. I'm fulll NOW.
GOSH. Drank so much MILO.
PHYSICS CT was okay.
I dont bother about the marks. Guess by DOING PHYSICS alone.. It makes me happy enough.
WHOOTS.

MIGHT BE DANCING FOR TEACHERS' DAY!
FUNKAYYE.

Anw. Took this testtt.

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		10
Quality Time:		9
Words of Affirmation:		6
Acts of Service:		5
Receiving Gifts:		0

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz



Emath Test: Wed
BIO Test: Fri

Don’t CALL ME!

Hello!

Miss Fernandez here won’t be contactable for the rest of the month.

DO NOT SMS HER.

DO NOT CALL HER.

ONLY EMAIL HER.

ONLY CONTACT HER THRU THE INTERNET.

WHICH IS COMPLETLEY FREE!

My phone bill officially just exploded.

TO ALL NATIONAL CAMPERS:

EUGENE LEE IS NOT GAY!

EUGENE! Don't feel guilty. Ahh. And don't cry lah.

Anw. I feel quite free. SJI and STC having CTs tmr.

SJI: BIO & Amath.

STC: Lit & ____ (forgot).

All the besttt!

BTW. Queenstown lib rocks. They have science centre exhibitions all over the entrance. Anyone wants to go there to study with me? I LOVE QUEENSTOWN LIB.

Oh yes, and the coffeeshop which sells very good prata... THEY SELL GOOD MILO TOO! WHOOOTS.

St Theresa's Home in the morning.
Left early. Sent Elvie to schoool.

Took some pictures of eugene's BELOVED STC for him.
I NEARLY GOT KILLED FOR THAT.
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Off to the Teens' Forum.
Talked about UNDERAGE STUFF. Sex, drinking, smoking, etc..
Well, actually more than 50% of the youth there engaged in illegal activity.
What was NOT surprising was that majority were all ____ (ahhem).

The stupid panel! EEEW.
The LIAN!!
And the HOT GUY.

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RISEN CHRIST! Well well well, wont be free to go down next week.
And I made the best outta THIS WEEK.


EXCHANGE OF SPECS!


I FORCED Marcus to be lian.


He kinda did it on his own this time.


GROUPIE 1


GROUPIE 2


EMO marc. MARCUS?? and what AM I DOING?!


SO CUTE. MARC is helping MARCus. -tears.


MARC the nerdooo.

okay. So after all that phototaking at MOS BURGER (it so rocks! haha first time you see), we headed down to TP entertainment centre. TAKE NEOS. BLEAH.

Haha. MARCUS IS A GREAT CRAPPING PARTNER.
Omg, faints. HAH!

WHAT WAS ALL THAT FAINTING ABOUT HUH MARCUS?

Alex called, and he just talked about fainting and fainting and fainting.
He said I was on the floor, and Sam was on the ambulance, and Marc was dancing around like a hyped up monkey. GOSH.

MARCUS. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!

Basically. That's that.

FIFTH POST for 11 August 2006.

Grandma's birthday is coming up. So is MOMMYS! and AUNTS! whoots.
haha. CAKEEEE.


Slept at 4.50am.
AMAZING I didn't feel SO TIRED in class.
CHAPEL TODAY. I LOVED IT!


Tomorrow's going to be quite hectic.
Morning: St Theresa's Home.
Afternoon: Teens' Forum @ YCK Grassroots' Club
Evening: Risen Christ?? STILL CONSIDERING.

PUBLIC ANNOUNCEMENT:

STUDYING AT TOA PAYOH NATIONAL LIBRARY ROCKS!

ESPECIALLY STUDYING PHYSICS. I LOVE LOVE LOVE PHYSICS.

Dont you just love studying?

We all do.

I've caught the STUDY BUG.

It's only 1.37 in the morning. And this is already my FOURTH POST.
Looks like I'm going on a Blogathon today.

Well, there's this really cool picture I got from someone's blog.
http://queencityspeak.blogspot.com/

It's like God's love is an exponential graph.
OBSERVE if you have NO IDEA what an exponential grap is.




OH MY.
I'm becoming a BLOGAHOLIC!!

GOR ROCKS! haha. LOOK AT HIS GP PRESENTATION.
No plagarism here.

SUICIDE ANYONE?

Often when people are nearing death, may it be due to illness or other reasons, only then do they truly treasure their gift of life and hope to have a chance to live again or longer, even if it’s just one day.

However, when life becomes too difficult for some people, instead of having the strength to make a comeback after suffering from setbacks, they seek the easiest way out – death. This phenomenon is not one to be ignored, as the number of suicidal cases in today’s society, including Singapore has seen a significant increase.

As such, we must try to understand what goes through the minds of such people. Why do they see death as the only solution to escape from their laborious life, one which they see no meaning to continue with.

Death as a final solution may appeal to people of any age group, but surveys have shown that people from the age group of 13-18 is the most vulnerable to such thoughts, since that has been frequently viewed as the growing years of a person’s life. During this period, it is when teenagers experience much hormonal changes, which is believed to render a person emotionally unstable and oversensitive. The impact of close friends and family can either make or break a person, leading to the contemplation of suicide as the only solution possible.

Suicide may be due to psychological or social impacts.

For example, when a child feels that he is ignored by people around him, a sense of loneliness fills him. When parents call him useless or reprimand him to a level which he takes it to be true, he will feel hopeless. This is supported by American psychiatrist Karl Menninger’s hypothesis, that all suicides have three interrelated and unconscious dimensions: revenge/hate (a wish to kill), depression/hopelessness (a wish to die), and guilt (a wish to be killed).

The social aspect may be summarised in 2 words – social integration, or plainly, the extent to which a person feels committed and part of a larger group or organisation. French sociologist Émile Durkheim found suicide was more likely when a person lacked social bonds or had relationships disrupted through a sudden change in status, such as unemployment. As one example of the significance of social bonds, suicide rates among adults are lower for married people than for divorced, widowed, or single people. People who live alone or lack close friends may not receive emotional support that would otherwise protect them from despair and irrational thinking during difficult periods of life. In addition, they are more likely than others to have had family loss and turmoil, such as the death of a family member, separation or divorce of their parents, or child abuse or neglect.

Occasionally, people commit suicide as a form of protest against the policies of a particular government. Mass suicides, in which large numbers of people kill themselves at the same time, are extremely rare. The most famous mass suicides occurred in AD 73 at Masada in what is now southern Israel, when 960 Jews killed themselves rather than face enslavement by Roman captors

Certain aspects of a person’s life increase the likelihood that the person will attempt or complete suicide. Studies have shown that one of the best predictors of suicidal intent is hopelessness. People with a sense of hopelessness may come to perceive suicide as the only alternative to a pained existence. People with mental illnesses, substance-abuse disorders such as alcoholism or drug dependence, and behavioural disorders also have a higher risk of suicide. In fact, people suffering from diagnosable mental illnesses, such as schizophrenia constitute to about 90 percent of all suicides. Physical illness also increases a person’s risk of suicide, especially when the illness is accompanied by depression. About one-third of adult suicide victims suffered from a physical illness at the time of their death.


An American psychologist, Edwin Schneidman, has described several common characteristics of suicides. These include a sense of unbearable psychological pain, a sense of isolation from others, and the perception that death is the only solution to problems about which one feels hopeless and helpless. Cognitive theorists (who study how people process information) emphasize the role of inflexible thinking or tunnel vision (“life is awful, death is the only alternative”) and an inability to generate solutions to problems. According to psychologists, many suicide attempts are a symbolic cry for help, an effort to reach out and receive attention.

However, such appeals or warning signs are generally not obvious. These usually take the form of talking about suicide or a wish to die; statements about hopelessness, helplessness, or worthlessness; preoccupation with death; and references to suicide in drawings, school essays, poems, or notes. Other danger signs include sudden, dramatic, and unexplained changes in behavior and what are called “termination behaviors.” These behaviors include an interest in putting personal affairs in order and giving away prized possessions, often accompanied by statements of sadness or despair.

As such, in order to prevent such suicides, one should bring that person to seek professional help, and more often than none, this would prevent a suicide. This is due to suicide being a temporary thought by the person, so once he is able to talk about it or think of other issues, he would abandon thoughts of suicide.


P.S. I bolded a few words. There were changes made to the original.

My Island Home - Kaira Gong - Singapore 2006 NDP Theme


This is SONG NUMBER TWO.

My immortal


Gabs got me hooked onto TWO SONGS.
This is SONG NUMBER ONE.

SJI AP2006 NCCAIR GOH MARCH PAST


Vid for SJI Annual Parade's up. Hahaha.

Went to Sam's house yesterday.
I got lost initially, but thanks to Sam's GREAT SENSE OF DIRECTION. I was FOUND.


Oh mann, HICKORY'S SO HOT!


SMILE EUGENE! Eugene's on the phone.
Haha, he and his thumb intrusion. NOW IT'S PAYBACK TIME.


We painted ALOT!


our PALETTE.


our MASTERPIECE.


our FINGERS!


Haha, EUGENE'S DAD. YOU BETTER OWN UP.
If it weren't for the existence of the right of privacy, I would have posted your number up here a long time ago.
WHOOTS.


OH yes. AND HAPPY BELATED NATIONAL DAY EVERYONE!

The number of bad things that happened today.

1. TOLLEY LOST
- I dont get it. We did so well for the mass quiz and mass participation segment. WE STILL LOST?

2. I ATE MACS again.
- I thought I said I wouldn't touch macs?

3. THE STUPID WATER SUPPLY GOT CUT OFF
- It got cut off just when I was about to get ready for the AP at SJI.

4. Dance class was CANCELLED, and NO ONE told me.
- So much for having my contacts 'so you can call me'.

5. I MISSED PART OF AP because I THOUGHT I HAD DANCE CLASS.
- How stupid can that get. I MISSED PART OF AP.

6. I might be free tmr.
- That's bad. I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE PLANS.

7. I couldn't hang out at toa payoh.
- I hate not being able to do things.



Okay.

Now for the good things that happened today..

1. Tolley did well for quiz and mass participation. =D

2. I WENT FOR FIRST PART OF AP.

3. I'm HOME!

I cant wait for December holidays.

周杰倫 - 三年二班
zhou jie lun - san nian er ban



Haha. Goodness, I'm suddenly on to these chinese stuff.

tóng huà
tong hua



OMG. This song rocks.

I left the Legion meeting room.
Just like that. Stormed out.
Gone are the days when I would truly enjoy Legion meetings.


Gone are the days when I truly could smile at my friends from Blessed Sacrament.
It's seriously time to move on..

Tolley rehearsal in the morning.
I was wondering.. Would I help out if I were in sec 4? I think I would.
Let's hope I really do stay ENTHUSIASTIC.

Thank you elsa and sandra for helping me so so so much!


I'm such a great PHYSICS TUTOR.

At least I got SAM! to love physics now. =P
THERMAL PHYSICS ROCKS.


haha. RISEN CHRIST totally ROCKS.
I'm so glad I've found cool a cool environment for worship.

I'm SO SICK OF MACS.
Ate at macs like twice today.
I swear I won't eat at macs for the entire of next weeek.


BTW.
I've decided to change my life.
From swimming to dancing.
From blessed sacrament to church-hopping.
From YOU to God.



It hit me. I wasted my food today.
And I put up those pictures of those starving PEOPLE.
I'm so sorry.




P.S. I nearly died during chem. Like seriously.. Due to an explosion.

Btw. I didn't mention.

There was a South One Cluster Plain English Speaking competition.
I was THE TIMEKEEPER.

It was such an honour. The only student who wasn't participating to be able to sit on a chair.
By the way. I think everytime I pressed the bell.. The participant would just freak out.
I felt guilty for the first few times. After that.. I was just doing my job.

omg.
lah
omgomgomg
i nearly died just now
because mathilda, jay, jonathan, and hady were in one group
then nurul, jasmine, joakim, and rahimah in another group
paul was left groupless
at first i thought paul was out
then thank god he's safe
so later i thought one person from that joakim group will get out.
IN THE END??? omg. it was jonathan's group
i FREAKED OUT LIKE SHIT. i was praying praying praying that jay will get out. NOT JON OMG NOT JON
haha. it worked.

I TYPED ALL THIS IN LESS THAN A MINUTE. Was talking to eugene. Haha. I get too emo when I talk to him.




This week was DANCE EVERYDAY MANN.
Mon: Tolley.
Tues: Tolley, UAN.
Wed: Tolley (amirah's house)
Today: Tolley.
TMR?: Tolley, UAN.
SAT?: Tolley.

Btw. You must be wondering what Tolley is.. It's the house name. And yeah, we're preparing an item.

haha. OMG. DANCE ROCKS.


And SATURDAY'S GOING TO ROCK BIG TIME.
Risen Christ!
SAM!

The votes have come in.

What do guys go for?
HOT GIRLS. (65)
Smart girls. (21)


What do girls go for?
HOT GUYS. (35)
Smart GUYS. (28)


Guess everyone goes for HOT people eh.
BUT GIRLS.. Haha. It's a RATHER small margin compared to the GUYS.

I woke up with a major BODY ACHE.
Was late for meeting Amirah.
School was just SO BORING.
WHYYY?
BECAUSE TUESDAYS ARE BORING.



TMR'S THE MUSICAL!
I can't wait for Chloe to come out.

Tube dress tmr? Most probably.
Toodles.