retreat. retreat. retreat.

haha. i LOVE THE RETREAT. it meant more time to bond.
well, i hope the antioch camp will be good.

i love my new school uniform mann. so thick and it's easy to wear!


yayys. december's coming.
it means a whole lot of things.

29. Rosary Making
30. Out with JOAVAN! HAIRCUT.
1-3. Antioch Camp
4. CONFIRMATION
10. Christmas Treat Prep, Pageant Rehearsal
11. Christmas TREAT
12. ((:
14. Pageant Rehearsal, Doc's appt? ):
17. AGR!
21. Pageant Rehearsal
23. Pageant Rehearsal
24. CHRISTMAS MASS
25. CHRISTMAS
29. Legion Day
31. NEW YEAR's EVE

i'm pretty sure i'm missing some things. anw. a lot of pple's birthday fall in december too.
nic, baba, bernie, nithu, erm... dom, bryan, melvin, celine, mayyong..

tommorrow's posting results. i'll get to see my new classmates. -please. i want good pple.


i'm dreaming of a white christmas.

OH GOSH. TODAY IS PROBABLY THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE.

november and december rocks mann. (:


GREEN POLKA DOTS? haha.
3E6. PHY CHEM BIO GEOG (:
NETBALL or TENNIS?


went late for retreat. just kept smiling.
i LOVE my teeth. i LOVE myself.

today's retreat was fruitful.

learnt that integrity makes up a person. it's meaning what you say, and saying what you mean.
LOVE, such a simple word. but yet, it's a word with tremendous depth.
LOVE is a decision. a sacrifice for the other party. giving whatever he or she wants. but THERE IS A CONDITION ATTACHED. give only if the person profits from it. meaning only for their own good.

well, i guess it all comes down to God loving us so.
he does sometimes 'lets us down' (or so we call it). and he does sometimes do things in his own time. he's one hell of a great God. (:
AND I LOVE HIM!

think about it. HELL IS NOT A FRYING PAN.
god will be there. just that you'll be bored stiff staring at him and you won't ever find the true meaning of happiness and love.
how sad is that?
living with God eternally and never enjoying the time spent with him... truly, it's a loss.

interview tmr. cool it nat.

i HOPE to meet you underneath the mistletoe this christmas- the second christmas not to mention. (:

the time back at home rocks. proper facilities. proper cooking.

SMSS called me!
interview on wed. i've got this phobia of interviews ever since the one at NJC.

friday had choir practice. ate and ate.
i still miss my seafood lunch.

saturday watched harry potter and exorcism of emily rose.
the posture of emily was freaking scary. i swear i could have screamed.
the part where the guy got up from his sleep and saw emily in the 'yoga' position. and when she emily saw everyone as ghosts.. gosh!! i wanted to hide behind myself. but it was kind of impossible. ended up i clenched my own fist. (: maybe not..
freaked out by the 123456,123456 part. -hides face. it's the DEVIL's number. according to chloe.

well. i got home around 11.30pm. i could have gone back earlier. but nvm. GOD HAD OTHER PLANS.
i finally learnt -or maybe half experienced- how to eat ice cream the SJI WAY. simply disgusting. eew.
a poised little girl, eating ice cream like a barbarian. CRAZINESS.

sunday.
had loads of meetings. 4 to be exact. and i spent my entire day in church.

TODAY.
just went for the retreat. wasn't all that boring. learnt tat fr anthony's a funny guy.
simply can't wait for my confirmation. (: dress, skirt, blouse?


FORGET whatever that has happened. because it's all UNTRUE.
wake up. time for reality.

back from so many camps. S4 and Malaysia!

S4 camp.
good memories. never to be forgotten.
i've met good friends. (: i love them all.
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MALAYSIA CAMP

I SIMPLY LOVED IT.
AND I MISS IDAM!
i miss his YOU THINK WHAT? FUNFAIR IS IT? and his I TOLD YOU I'M A NICE GUY. his humour. his ability to liven things up.

day one.
interaction between ANTS (that's our group name btw). it was great.
AMANDA. SIJIA. IZZATI. WILEEN. CHERNG SHING. GEOK YING. GEETHA. CLASSANDRA. HUIMIN. CRYSTAL. NERISSA. RACHEL-my mama.
we got wet. i didn't quite like it at first. but i enjoyed it in the end.
me, chris, nerissa, cherng shing and izzati were the sole survivors.
we were introduced to our doms. and were we simply freaked out! eewww. insects and spiders everywhere! to think we had to sleep with them.
when it came to night time, it was quite a comfortable sleep after all.
CONGRATS, I'VE LIVED THROUGH THE FIRST DAY.
i loved the food.

day two.
mee goreng for breakfast.
started out wet again. but i didn't mind this time round.
we prepared for our waterfall expedition. (: oh the excitement!
we went through the jungle trail. go up and go down steep slopes. so fun. i seriously enjoyed it. i didn't get any leech bites. we had to navigate with a compass.
did outdoor cooking and we pitched our own 'basha'. good stuff, although our basha was a little.. erm. run down? maintaining a fire sucks. smoke in my eyes.
did a night walk, and we had to do a solo walk. scary. taking into account that i'm quite afraid of the dark. amazing how i managed to conceal my fear of the dark all these years.
slept in our run down basha, and i must say it was quite comfortable.

day three.
woke up with our trainers shouting "wake up! wake up! it's raining. go to the nearest shelter right now!" geok ying and i were a little afraid cuz we didn't really know what to do. but the trainers and teachers were there to help.
WATERFALL! finally. phew. got a dip and washed my hair. for the first time in three days. it was freezing cold but the water was SHIOK. we sabo-ed IDAM to go into the water. (: and we kinda made his objectives of this camp unachievable for him. 1. we got his shoes wet. 2. we made him wake us up instead of vice versa.
we walked back via the road route. it was easier. and the map is not the actual territory. yes yes. i agree.
we reached kem kaizen. and we had our yummy lunch. (: prepared for our campfire. IDAM again came up with some weird idea for the campfire. he's funny. and i can't help but miss his humour!
campfire. the items were fan-tabulous. ISMAIL and IDAM and all the other trainers were there to make everything funny.
I MISS THEM. I MISS THEM. I MISS THEM!!!
last debrief from idam. ):
sang a birthday song for gy twice.
said grace for our last dinner together. i hope it was good.
WE DREW ON IDAM'S FACE. IT SO ROCKED! A GOOD FIVE MINUTES. (:

day four.
yays. time to go home! but no. i don't want to go home. i'll miss everyone.
i have to go home. good beginnings have endings.
did the survival challenge. i started the fire in the fastest time mann! haha. i was the first. wheehee.
went to kelong for a GOOD SEAFOOD DINNER. yumms. lj treated ice-cream.
on our way back to singapore. we were singing on the bus. azlan and idam were there to entertain us. haha. nice people.
me, cherng shing, geok ying and wileen were all hyped up.
(the window, the window, the second storey window. with a hip and a hop. and a mighty throw. i'll throw you out the window.)
banana song.
pass it on.
froggie song.
many more.
i'll miss this camp!
goodbye forever...
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okay. i seem to like this malaysia camp even though it was "back to basics". no flushing system. sleeping with the ants. hardly any lights. and we had to do everything ourselves. haha. all the pampered ones out there most probably couldn't tahan. thank god i survived. (:
THANKS TO ALL WHO MADE THIS CAMP POSSIBLE. i love my ANTS - my grp, not those puny little things.

okay. i'm going to triple science.
stupid lahs. i don't want. I DON'T WANT. lucky me, i'm not taking pure lit. i'll probably kill myself.
my classmates are nice. (: haha. alot of councillors too.

MALAYSIA CAMP 2005.
I LOVE IT. (:

confirmation's coming. i need to get ready. spiritually.

i hope to meet you under the mistletoe this christmas.

1st NOV.
another month. come and it will go soon.

my BUSY SCHEDULE:
4N: Open House
5N: Day camp at Stamford Pri
6N: PYC
8-11N: S4 Cluster Camp
13-16N: Malaysia Camp
20N: Parish Assembly
21-25N: Pre-con retreat
28-30N: study
1-3D: ANTIOCH Camp
4D: CONFIRMATION. probably the most important day of my life.
9D: Carolling at Australian High Commissioner's House
11D: Parish Carnival
12D: MY BIRTHDAY
13-16D: study
19-23D: Christmas Prep
24D: ONE DAY OF CHURCH
25D: CHRISTMAS
26-30D: study
31D-1J: CELEBRATE!

at least i won't be so bored. when i'm bored i eat you see.


<<
year TWO:
elvira. without her.. i'll be the ultimate loner.
miss sim. i know i pretty much sucked to you in the beginning of the year. but thanks. thanks for everything you've done for me. you've brought me to like math alot. (: and i treasure that. without you. i wouldn't have discovered my talent. and i wouldn't have known that patience is INDEED A VIRTUE.
my class. thanks for making me realise that life is all about others and not only yourself. or a matter of fact.. myself.

there was the running of elections for student council. i didn't understand the meaning of failure at that time. it wasn't much of a learning experience.

then there was the exams. i didn't understand failure then too.

the application for NJC. it was TRULY SOMETHING ONLY I LEARNT FROM. i understood what failure was. i understood that not everything's going to be sunny.. i was holding on to it too tightly.

math olympiad. it was good. i finally had a sense of acheivement.

my end of year examinations. i studied because i cannot stay in this community any longer. i tried my best. i got what i wanted i guess. thank you dear lord for being with me. my 8As and 2Bs.

my family member got admitted to hospital. like right before the exams. it was only then when i really experienced God's love for us. i understand now.

`the best school year in my entire life : 2005.

year ONE:
mr lau: thanks for the laughter.
ms cai: you're gone. but thanks for the trust.
ms V koh: you're one hell of a teacher. the first and one the few teachers to believe that there's
mdm mas: my friend.
something in me worth nurturing.
to all the teachers. it was great fun being in your class. [including dnt (:]

then there was a time during my time of being chairperson when i couldn't take the weight of all the responsibilities placed on my shoulders. it has taught me a great deal, teamwork. by working with your committee.

i never expected to make it so far even in year one.
>>

and that's pretty much the end of my two years in STC. what a reflection eh?

Kellock has made me realise that EM3 doesn't spell the end of your life.
STC has made me realise that success doesn't depend on the number of distinctions you get, instead, it's the journey to the destination that matters.
well. i just don't seem to fit into the community. thus i HAVE to leave it. how i wish someone, anyone, understands.
i don't want to step in there anymore.
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okay. back to reality.
i've been studying. (: feeling a little clever right now.

yesterday:
handed in the application form for streaming.
i hope i can get into double science. although i know i'll get into triple science. (not being cheeky)
i kinda argued with my parents over double science, i was foolish. but i gave in to them in the end.
sick with the fever

today:
ALL SAINTS DAY.
PLEASE REMEMBER TO GO TO CHURCH.
my grandfather's safe now. my faith saved him and myself (:

I LOVE GOD! (:

PLEASE HAVE FAITH. MIRACLES DO HAPPEN. IT'S HAPPENING EVERYDAY, EVERY MINUTE.

TO WHOEVER'S READING THIS. YOU ARE A MIRACLE.

I'VE BEEN BLESSED WITH FRIENDS WHO CARE