last day of school.
i hope i never return to that school ever again.
but at the back of my mind. i know i will.
if i really don't go back. there are many things i'll miss about that school.

MY MILK.
my crapping partner. the best one yet.
my hello two.
my support.
MY CLASS.

well. i'll just hope for the best.
st. margs, here i come. (:

i want double. i want it badly.
my parents dont understand.
i cried in school. oh well, stupid me.

celine. a box.
vinee. a cookie!
janet and mel. nicely cut paper and m&ms.
aly. timeout.

i'm thinking of what i should do now.
and of course. you.


`timeout nat. you need a break.

BINGE.

happy birthday MR DCRUZ, JO and JOY! (:
all of you are a little older right now.

thursday.
results. they were crazy. and i'm a happy girl.
towned. but was too tired. (:
it ended up all right anyways.

friday.
more results. even more hysterical.
and even happier.

and i have to thank a few people.

YOU (1)
for helping me when i was down.
when the world was nearly falling apart.
you brought me to my senses and told me that God was always there. and he will always be there.
the story of the footprints. so simple and yet so touching.
thank you.
and I LOVE YOU. (:

YOU (2)
for telling me when i'm wrong and when i'm a complete idiot.
and for just being there when i'm the biggest loser in the world.
when no one was listening. you were just present.
your presence was genuine.
i'm sorry i shouted at you. sorry.
I LOVE YOU too.

YOU (3)
you're my best friend. the only one i can trust my life with.
you gave up everything for me.
you guided me. (:
thank you. and i hope i can die for you one day.


guesses anyone? who's number one two or three?


my life is organising itself. and i'm happy with it.

geog.
geog.
science.
home econs.
more geog.
the list is never ending. mann.

i'm not sleeping properly.
too many dreams all of a sudden. and all of them are damn drama.
i can't sleep.
and i can't eat.
why must you go to the hospital like now. OF ALL TIMES!!!
streaming. FOCUS.


the downfall of my pride has left me in this horrible state.

i shall resume blogging since i read an article on good writing.
it claims that regular practice of writing will improve and raise the standards of the work that a student can produce.

2/10/2005:
bad news befalls me. but you were there to make it a lot better.
god loves all of us and he has chosen this time most probably to test me.
mental strength is most essential now. i have to use it.
tears fell. it meant weakness and sensitivity.
HOWEVER...
thank YOU.

pride is something i hold on to really dearly.
but i've lost it and there's no way to get it back.
rejection.
i can say that i'm probably the most stuck up person ever. but yeah.. it's me.
accept me.


thoughts surrounding whatever's happening right now.