i finally can post without having to use the school comp.

the past week has been quite all right.
other than the fact that i'm about to die of major stress.
the crying in chinese class has helped me destress.
sitting alone against the wall, no one noticed me. well, at least i think so.

SO MUCH WORK TO DO.
and this where i can let it all out.


RESULTS.
WHAT I DREAD THE MOST.
doesn't it do enough harm to you mentally?
first the math, then the english, next chinese.

results have never gotten me anywhere. and it never will.
look where it landed me? in a school where i don't belong.
appeals might help, but then again.. the results of the appeal will be horrifying.


has it ever occurred to you that if one were perfect, everyone will probably get jealous of that certain someone? and there will come a time where everyone hates that PERFECT PERSON? (not tyring to pin-point, but it was a dream of mine)


homework, other activities, church. choir, practice.
it's getting on my nerves.
so many things. too little time.
i'm not a robot. (although beatrix says i swim like one)


HOWEVER
there's one result i'm quite pleased with.
mathematical olympiad. yupps.


NJC IS KILLING ME.
not the waiting, but the rejection.
-shrugs. oh well. there are bound to be failures everyone you go. and here's one right now.


`thoughts of rejection, pefection, and the loss of my pride.

saturday i sang responsorial psalm!!
it was quite good, except that i ran outta breath.

sunday rocked.

I'M EXPERIMENTING.
SEEING HOW WELL I'LL DO WITH AND WITHOUT STUDYING.
NOT STUDYING ROCKS.

monday, back to school.
CA WEEK. the dreaded one.
english.
only 10 people went for training.

tuesday, math and lit.
math totally screwed up. later going to check my results.
LIT WAS EASY!
home econs: last practical.
next week it's sewing.
i made cookies. not as good as famous amos, but still good.

wednesday, geog.
even easier.

today.
chinese. mann i dint understand anything.
shrugs. oh well.



I HATE NJC.
IT'S WAITING WAITING AND MORE WAITING.

waiting waiting waiting. gone...

slacking again. yeah. in school.
my comp is like working but i cant blog??

mann. i'm so screwed.
i didn't know that there was a math test.
but nvm. i think i'll score.
geog. BLAH!
i had it postponed 6 days and i'm still not prepared.

GLUTTONY HAS OVERCOME ME.

interview was all right.
I MUST GET INTO NJC.

off. and away.

ok. comp is down, so the only time to blog is during project work school hours.

monday was phototaking. so screwed up.
fun shot was NOT FUN.

tuesday was CCA phototaking.
had to bring track shoes, courtshoes, school shoes. CCA shirt, council whites, PE tee.
so many things.
later was NAPHA.
not bad. only one B. rest all As.

yesterday!!!
i SKIPPED SCHOOL.
yippes.
haha. i took a blood test, the nurse was so funny. she couldn't find my vein.
maybe cuz i'm too FAT la.
hmm. after the blood test, i couldn't be bothered to pressurize the spot.
so i left it as it was.
and then i went to the gym, did weight lifting exercises and the spot started to bleed!!
ahh!! so funny.
saw the hot guy at the gym. yayys.

today.
i'm here again.
my account is locked out. =S
blogging bout my same old boring stuff.
and BERNIE'S watching!! (:
just redid my standing broad jump. 184. super low.
blah.
i did 230 before for pete's sake!
everyone's blogging, so im NOT RISKING MY LIFE.

crazy fellow.
study so late. later get sick.

MY DIET'S NOT WORKING!!
GODDAMIT.

ok. i need to go now..
lessons over. crappp.
i'm sitting for a test now. pythagoras theorem.
full marks?? -shrugs.