i finally can post without having to use the school comp.

the past week has been quite all right.
other than the fact that i'm about to die of major stress.
the crying in chinese class has helped me destress.
sitting alone against the wall, no one noticed me. well, at least i think so.

SO MUCH WORK TO DO.
and this where i can let it all out.


RESULTS.
WHAT I DREAD THE MOST.
doesn't it do enough harm to you mentally?
first the math, then the english, next chinese.

results have never gotten me anywhere. and it never will.
look where it landed me? in a school where i don't belong.
appeals might help, but then again.. the results of the appeal will be horrifying.


has it ever occurred to you that if one were perfect, everyone will probably get jealous of that certain someone? and there will come a time where everyone hates that PERFECT PERSON? (not tyring to pin-point, but it was a dream of mine)


homework, other activities, church. choir, practice.
it's getting on my nerves.
so many things. too little time.
i'm not a robot. (although beatrix says i swim like one)


HOWEVER
there's one result i'm quite pleased with.
mathematical olympiad. yupps.


NJC IS KILLING ME.
not the waiting, but the rejection.
-shrugs. oh well. there are bound to be failures everyone you go. and here's one right now.


`thoughts of rejection, pefection, and the loss of my pride.