vesak day holiday.
my dad was PMS-ing. my poor bro. kena from him.
went for bbq. rocked big time.
haha. and i got information that two gays were at mac's.
i think homosexuals are interesting.
yeah.

tuesday.
results were out.
nth else nice happened.
OFFICIALLY OUT OF PRAYER MINISTRY.
yeah.
i wanna watch 'the choirboys'!

today.
rained in the morning. dint feel like going to school.
dragged myself outta bed. the sight of my loved ones. ahh.
my mental state has brought me to such extents.
SAM! I WANT MY LIGHT SABER! HAHA.
don't miss any of the action.
and you finally tagged!! yayy!
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ok. i've decided on french.
weird eh?
haha. well, my name is spelt natHalie because the french spell it that way?
haha. normally it's natalie.
interesting...

results out.
i've finally realised that no matter what your score is, you should be satisfied.
if not, depression will grow on you and it'll affect your CA2..
told my parent. (mom)
not parents. (not mom AND dad)
and here comes my freedom!
this is the worst i ever did in my entire secondary school life.. and i get THE FREEDOM!
i should do badly more often eh?

dint get my five A1s.
walao. i feel like beatin 'em up la. (eng)
can't they give me like one more mark somewhere.
one mark short of a combined A.. blah
ok. observe the kind of language i use oh-so-very-often. and yes, and I DO DESERVE that A! i really DO.

i'm piggified.
i ate SO MUCHH. haha.
tmrw wearing whites, definitely able to see my fats.
but it's (fats) sexy. -whistles.

i've got alot to say today so don't mind me..
((:

on friday there'll be a BBQ! yeah!!
strictly for council board members and parents only.
haha.
having so many BBQs lately.
i'll lose my two packs la.
two is already so pathetic.

got a pressie for elvie.
shared with ginny and wileen.
i think she'll love it.

i'm 50 bucks richer today!
thanks to my grandparents! yeah mann. they rock.
something told me to visit them, and i did.
and i got money.
so cool. and i was worrying about my swimming package.
so ex. $51.


finally find
when you and i collide.

i want to collide with you!!
haha. it's a dream.
you're my dream.
i'm the dreamer.
haiz.
-slaps myself.
NAT! WAKE UP!
DREAMING IS NO GOOD!!
mann.. ok. i'm awake..

getting too animated here?
i'll stop.

iloveGod.

it's all about you.

`nat

french?
dutch?
italian?

i'll have to decide soon.

math.
my poor math paper.
how could you do this to me??
others found it easy..
i thought otherwise.
you let me break down when i was about to complete you.
my poor brain is now reduced to dryness.
i can't get my targeted grade anymore.
and it's all thanks to one stupid question.
today i woke up like early.
full of hope.
hoping the bloody math paper would be easy.
and this is what i get.
shit.

ok.
it's over.
i've already confined myself to one whole day of depression.
now. it's relax time.

I SOLVED A SIMULTANEOUS EQUATION!!
(not a very big deal)
whee!
i'm so proud of myself. (:


i've finally regretted sending in my application for NJC?
i seriously think that VJC IS A BETTER CHOICE.


sam: the guy from outram is hot la. haha. he doesn't come early. mann. i wish you could take a look at him. haha. comments! indian-eurasian.

hmm. this made me think: why don't i go for many chinese guys? haha. weird.

reuban: thanks for your worksheets! it's easy. NOT DIFFICULT. haha. STC is out mann!! i can't live in prison anymore. yupps. all the best for tamil O's. haha. waiting for 18 Nov?? on the 19 Nov i shall treat you. haha. if you DO READ THIS..

i want back muscles!!

ok. i'm like not depressed anymore. but i keep eating.
mann this is bad..


looking at my previous posts.
yuuckk!
i was disgusting.
esp. in the middle of last year.
whatever.
what matters most is now.
i'm a perfectly straight person.


iloveGod

rawk on.
cuteness.

dnt. din finish my design idea.
damn. sure to pull me down by alot.
i need to beat you.

and there was this stupid question.
what thermosetting plastic would you use to make a HOCKEY STICK?
mann. i couldn't answer.. and it was about a HOCKEY STICK!!
ahh. the anger in me.
i just put GRP glass reinforced polyester.

shall ciong for math paper 2.
and that's the end of streaming mid-yr.
yeah!

i hope i can get into the IP.
-prays.
whatever it is.
i can't stay in this school.

IJ TP?
IJ St. Nick's?
VJC?
NJC?
all better than what i'm in right now.
prison.

i lost my red NIKE water bottle.
-slaps myself.
"you idiot! how the heck could you leave it on the bloody bus?"
17.05.2005.. my bottle left me.

oh yeah.
i dreamt of my bro getting 217 for PSLE?!
mann. i'll kill him if he gets that low.
i don't care if he fails.
but i care if he DOESN'T get into SJI!
haha. now where's the irony in that mann?

tmr's the late pope's birthday.
i'm finally going to church! in a really long time.
i kinda missed weekday masses.


I'M REACHING MY GOAL!
I'M LESS THAN A WEEK AWAY FROM IT.
MY BELOVED 5 A1s.
please excuse me.
i'm a little mentally unstable right now.


iloveGod.

it's only you.

new layout!
yeah.
i watched discovery.. FAT WOMEN ARE BEAUTIFUL.
that makes me the sexiest woman on earth.
yeah.

ok.
science was.. all right.
PHYSICS rawked!!
din bring my protractor though.
i was CLEVER enough to use alternative methods to measure angles.
haha.
-pats head.

dnt.
shall go read through now.

byes!

i sound happy today don't i?

msges were so cute.

iloveGod

je t'aime.

should i tell?
or should i not tell?
-plucks flower petals.
i ended up with tell.
i think i shouldn't.
i want to tell..

mann i hate this kind of situations where the cons are more than the pros.
but whatever it is. i will tell eventually.
the other party might be like.. "ok, whatever".
and i go.. silent..
not knowing how to reply.

my life rocks right now.
i dunno how it is going to be like in the future.
i hope for a good future.
who doesn't?

i need to get at least $650,000 in my bank and get attached at least 2 times before i leave for heaven.

yes.
that's all i want.


science tmrw.
my bio sucks.
i dunno how i'm going to get into a triple science class.

sam's play rawked!
like TOTALLY.
mann. so hillarious.
mrs fanny ho.
i liked her.
and danny boy.
i simply loved the way he acted mann.
i wouldn't mind watching it again.
suddenly drama rocks?
good job reuban. u didn't get lost in your own school!!
went out with sam, her mama and 5 other people.
till 11 plus?
yeah. rocked mann.


this is a long post.
i shall not have the readers to strain their eyes.
or does anyone at all read my blog?

iloveGod.

i'm still deciding between the truth and deception.
should i or should i not tell?


`its all about you baby.

my keyboard's not working properly. taking long to type this. enter key's not working too. wtf. i'm high. tmr's maths. i WILL pass. i have faith. simultaneous equations are STUPID. yupps. backspace not working too. i shall be waiting for tmrw to come. but not to go. sam has a play tmrw. haha. cant wait. seriously, i still have no idea on what to wear. it's a tiring post. i'll stop here. HE'S SO HOTTTTT. iloveGod.

yeah mann. i lost weight.
or is it all in my head?

whee! i bought a new tank top.
black.
giordano.
i think it's nice.

i'll be singing responsorial psalm in church next sat!
ttly excited.

i wanna watch HOUSE OF WAX!
there's violence!
and KINGDOM OF HEAVEN!
haaha. killing violence too.
both NC-16.
i dun care.
i'll watch them.

ok. my last post was totally depressing.
and yeah. i m like so gonna fail my chinese.
went OUTTA point for compo.
paper lost 30+ marks.
yeah.
quite obvious it's an F9.

ANYWAY..
enough with depression.

it's happy day today!
i dunno why.
i din study i guess.
haha. i've not touched my history book ever since 6 days ago.
i rock!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
and to all future mothers too..
haha.. me???

iloveGod.

hotness.
it's just you.

today... the crappiest day.

the most empty day

ok. i'm getting up from my sleep to post.
there's seriously something wrong with me.

i'm not love-sick.
or am i?
i can't be exam sick.
it's stupid.

i feel like something's missing.
it's something. i don't know what.

tmrw's the exam.
and i dunno what to do.
i need to cry.
it's not stress.
it's the emptiness.

can someone understand??

the keyboard will break if i take my anger out on it any further.


i hate sleepwalking.
i'm not joking.

whatever..

i know how to spell F-O-C-U-S.
but do i know how to put it into action??
NO.

locked outta my house again.
i'm glad i met my bro.
i needed the keys badly.
i'm stupid.
library and macs were freezing.
even hitting the bloody eraser hurt my fingers.
i hate my fingers.
they're so prone to the cold.

chinese.
all the best.

math.
all the worst.

i hate today.
is today PMSing day?
guess so.



all i need is you.

iloveGod.
please. i really need you.
i want the confidence i had just yesterday.

yesterday went to macs and study with sam and reuban.
haha. first time i saw sam in a LONGGG time. yepps.
i missed her.
and yes. you miss one. you miss the other one. haha.
crapp.
sorry. this doesn't make sense.
i'm in a weird state of mind now.

finished studing for my lit.
i'm confident of passing it.

today had english!!
i loved the summary. i think it was easy.
it was the paraphrasing that was easy, but locating the points were difficult.
oh gosh. this is the first time i'm confident of getting at least a B.

continuing with the day..
i was SUPER HIGH for the whole day.
laughing like crazy.
smiling during the paper.
dreaming during my prayers.

F-O-C-U-S.
i need to focus!
-slaps myself.
"nat. cmon, wake up mann!!"


iloveGod.

hotness.

I'M SO NOT GOING TO GET AN A1 FOR HISTORY. -cries.
i dunno what to do. it's 9 horrible chapters.
call me childish for all you want. i dun give a damn.
its really killing me.
i can't take it.

well. smsing seems to be the only thing that can take away my stress these few days.
i need a break.
and guess what. mid-year hasn't even started.
i think it's just all in my head.

I NEED 5A1s. not just 5As. but A1s.

i need a hug from you right now darling.
haha. shall see you on tuesday morning.
and help me get over my fear for english.

church work is going to kill me.
PYC secretary is going to die.
someone care to take over??


all i need is you.


iloveGod.