ahh!! he's so cute. ok. at least he SOUNDS cute.
whatever.

this week was horrendous!!
everytime i try to help improve the condition of our catholic community in STC, i get scolded.
f***ed up idiot.
i can't control myself anymore. it's so stupid.
so what if you're in a triple science class?
you think you're so high and mighty eh?
and so what if you're the vice-president?
you always pick on a pathetic secretary like me.

you'll never gain my respect again.
never.


so much for yesterday..

i slept at 4.30am yesterday.
and i could hardly concentrate during class.
i shall continue until after mid-year.
i need to beat only two people.
you and you
get 5A1s.
and i shall be happy.

tmrw is whites day!

`nat

iloveGod.

hotness.. -sizzles.

mann, the whole of this week i hardly studied.
haha. i MUST study.
I'm feeling guilty.

this week was great.
other than a few misfortunes here and there.
tuesday. the stupid exhibition.
wednesday. forgot to do homework.
thursday. nth..
friday. forgot to bring my wallet. and i woke up late.

SATURDAY ROCKED! i mean. yesterday.
haha. mann. i din wanna leave church la.
joavan and sherman practically dragged me outta church.
haha. there went my chance of seeing my darling.
i was hugging the church pillar.
cute scene.

live like you were dying, by tim mcgraw (is this how u spell his name?)
i like the song!

i'm so proud of myself!
i only smsed 29 messages for the whole of this week!

the late pope was so much better looking!


missingyou.

iloveGod.

i'm bored.
and i feel like studying.
but i'm lazy??


ok. for starters.
yesterday had Acies.
SCREWED!! major stage fright.
stopped at a line and couldn't continue.
i forced mysef to read on.
BLANKED.

whee! i love HOT PINK!
haha.
there's the word hot.
-fans myself.

i'm high.
i'm always high??
yepps.
yesterday.
not today.
nth interesting happened.

shall go study now.
maybe go run later.

"i need to stop building castles in the air"
it's making me hope too much?

ilovegod.

`nat

.when you believe.

i'm halfway through this month. yes!

for the past two days.
i ttly skipped lessons and slacked helping with the display for the exhibition.

today was the opening ceremony for the exhibition.
it was a BIG DEAL.
sec two councillors had to be ushers.
sec three councillors escorted the VIPS.

the CMC (class management commitee) got the name tag 'USHER'. haha.
he's so hot!


had 'Make-Your-Mark' competiton finals today.
at NUS.
it was great. stacy, my honey and rathika did a really good job.

came back to school for PTC. was rushing like siao.
my mama cut the long queue cuz i had to go for MPS (meet the people session) with the MP.

so interesting.
i heard many of the people's problems.
mostly financial issues, family problems and education concerns.
although they may seem minor to us.
it's really major to them.
a sad story behind every problem.

TODAY I ATE TOO MUCH.
alot of receptions. three in total.
and now i feel fat.
gosh. (:

have been in councillor uniform ever since 6 am.
and i still am. at this late hour of 1130.
i shall go shower now.

i'm feeling hot!
wait. it just sounds so wrong.
i should say.. i feel warm. haha.


i'll collapse after a busy day.
i'll rise again because of you.
the strength you provide me with.
the love you give me selflessly.
and i can never repay you.
not even with my life.
ilovegod!

k. i sound so mushy here.

ilovegod.

`nat

hot!!

hockers.
they're hot. (:
haha.

math olympiad training.
crazy. learnt alot of things that are going to be tested in pre-u.
CJ rocks. haha. VJ, NJ.
a little too early to be thinking about jc?

The Kind of Love That Saves You by Amy Yurk
the book's good. she has really rare wisdom, and a deep understanding of what it means to be human.

MR LONELY. akon.
cute song.

sam's crazy over her new crush. haha. ((:
crazy i tell you.

2.4 today.
people say we ran more this year.
but i think it's last year that we ran more!
so stupid. we should go to a track and do it.
haha. maybe my stamina just got better.
i'm so full of myself.
i'm high.


today's legion meeting sucked to the core.
_____ spoiled the whole mood of the meeting.
kept telling me off la.
what to do and what not to do.
HELLO!! i've been in legion ever since i was pri 4!!
longer than anyone in school!
PISSED.

ilove god.


i'll hold on to this feeling till it fades away by itself.

`nat

sports day. warm day.
was commentator. screwed up.
now the ultimate clown of the school. ((:

anyway. all i want now is rest. so tired. -yawns.
was screaming and shouting and cheering my house on.
haha. and of course, asking the gals over the mic to cheer their runners on.
the best was the 4 X 400m relay. i love it.
i wanted to particpate in it badly. din get the chance. commentating was my job for the whole day.

REMINDER TO SELF : NEVER COMMENTATE. AGAIN.

sam!! haha. i love you. ((:
whee.
i broke a leg for sports day. (okok, not literally)
and now i'll have to rely on you to support me for the rest of my life.
yes.
my darling.
okok. i sound sick. yupps.


my hair is long.
i'm going to cut it on the 18th May!
the late pope's birthday.

i think the pope was HANDSOME when he was young!


i've wanted to say this for a month now. but i keep forgetting
USHER'S HOT!!
his abs rock!! ahh.
-screams and hands are in the air


`nat


ilove god.


he's cute.
infatuations don't last.
but i know this one will.

i'm high today.

ok.
i'm high most of the time.

i've discovered something.
when you worry bout something and that certain something, it'll like so turn out bad.
and when you are calm about a certain situation and look on the bright side, the probability of it turning out good is high!

i'm no more sick. (:
fever makes me shiverrrr. -brrrrr

`ilovegod.

trust in HIM and everything else will fall into place.
perfectly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEXTER. my dear uncle!

he's hot

went to school till 10am only! so fun. had to take a blood test at NUH and had a doctors appointment. blood tests are nice. get to see your own blood get outta your body. ok, i'm weird.
at least i got to skip two periods of miss ____'s lesson. she PMSes the whole day. and that pisses me off.
had a fever of 39 degrees yesterday. i guess it was fun. i mean my parents DID wait on me.
and it rarely happens!!

mid-year's coming. i still don't feel like i need to study although i know very well that i should.
i should pray more and ask for help, so that i will concentrate. (:


rain!! i love the rain. how i wish that s'pore would flood and school will be cancelled tmrw!!! haha.
i don't like thursdays and worse, got house practice tmrw.
NETBALL!! whee.

i managed to throw my discus past the third line.. but it went outta the boundary. so darn pissed. hurr..

i getting over the depression i've been suffering for the past few days. figured that whatever's going to happen will take place. it's like there's no use crying over spilt milk. so yeah.. the world will still keep turning even if i cry my beautiful eyes out.
i've learnt to accept facts although they do hurt.

all i need is God in my presence and everything else will fall into place and be perfect.

ilovegod.

`nat

injustice and depression

happy april fools day.
i dun really take a fancy to this day. i REALLY HATE IT.

i don't like practical jokes. i don't like lies.
all i want is the truth.
everytime i try to trust someone, they betray me.

depression.
sam. all i can do now is think of you and all the good times we had together.. christmas. church. valentines day..
thanks for advicing me.. milo worked quite well but it's a totally one whole cup of fats.
what the heck. i'm pissed right now. i shall vent my negative emotions on food.
i need to take a break from everything. i m lacking the sleep i need. i m so YOUNG and so many things are happening to me. it's total injustice. isn't that what singapore works on?... injustice.

democracy.
it's missing in action. everything is not democratic anymore. it's too much to bear.


WHY??
-it's time for me now to close my eyes and take a break from all these crap. what ever happened to all my happy moments? it's gone.


heard this quotation.
"Happiness is easy. It is letting go of unhappiness that is hard. We are willing to give up everything but our misery."
it's quite true.
so i shall put all this behind me after this post. and leave it in the hands of the LORD.

u were the one who created me. i give you my life. and to you i shall place all my happiness as well as unhappiness. i know it is you talking to me.
ILOVEGOD.



`i would be foolish to cry over you. it's not worth it. but if i were to dream of you everytime i sleep. i would choose to sleep forever.